Monday, April 4, 2011

Too Sick to Type

I have been sick for the past couple days with a virus, I'm not quite feeling better yet actually a little worse.

I have a had a busy week. Here are some of the wonderful things we did.

Easter Egg Hunt at the Aquatic Center
Detroit Zoo
Roller Skating at Preschool Skate
Romp and Stomp
Story Time
Little Kids Concert.

We have had the times of "our lives".

Right now im feeling to sick to type.

I will post later

love you all. God Bless

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

The Stay At Home Unemployed Mother

I've been really having a hard time lately and I now know the cause of it. It's that I really like I'm being torn apart. I have been unemployed for just over 6 months now, I have been really beating the internet pavement looking for jobs. This really causes some inner turmoil for me.  It's all because of my love of my son. I have absolutely loved and enjoyed being with him, and it makes me so sad to have to go back to work. Now, I am so sad because I know that every week could potentially be my last week with him. It is almost heartbreaking.  However, the flip side to this is that I have been applying for jobs for 6 months, without any real job coming my way. That means all of this inner turmoil is really for nothing.  It is very difficult. I love my son more than anything in this world, yet I need a job. 

The good way to think about it is now he is potty trained.  That means cheaper daycare, and I can now enroll him in an all day preschool. This will save us a ton of money! Truthfully, no matter how hard it has been being unemployed, I would not have given up this past 6 months for anything. I feel so incredibly blessed to be this handsome little man's mother. It is by far my favorite title in the world, Mommy. 

Truthfully, I can say that I didn't really know what real true love was until I had my son, but now when I look in his deep blue eyes and see that sparkle of happiness and love, nothing in this world can deny that. 
My husband and I have been trying to have another baby for the past 8 months, and nothing has really happened. I had two miscarriages, but both were in the first 7 weeks, which I don't know really counts or not.  I would love nothing more than to grow our family and hold our little babies in my arms. I wouldn't even care if it wasn't mine biologically. I don't care if its just someone else baby that needs someone to look after it. Nothing would give me greater joy than to give life to life. 

I would love to be a foster mother. The only thing is that right now we live in a two bedroom apartment. Three people and two cats is way more life than any two bedroom apartment should hold. I really want to get a house or a condo even if it is just for the fact to have another child or a foster child.  My heart is so full of love and I want to share it with any little person that might want it. 

I have been working on my samples for my online store. I have a shirt made and am working on a pair of high waisted linen shorts. It is really occurring to me that a lot of my stuff is going to look like it came from American Apparel. lol. Of course, they are my altered patterns and designs, but I am thinking that it fits in the same niche of clothing.  Which, I am good with because it gives me a window for an effective price point and a closer look on how to market my store. 

I am a woman of few words the past couple of days. Here are the things that I am thankful for (in no particular order) :

1. My sewing machine
2. My hard working husband
3. My sweet baby boy
4. My kitties
5. My family
6. My friends
7. The money in the bank
8. The food on the table
9. A place to live
10. The overflowing happiness in my life
11. To be a mother
12. To share my life with other people
13. For my ability to wear my heart on my sleeve
14. For those who have touched my life
15. For my car
16. For my instrument and music
17. For this computer and my phone
18. For being in love
19. For having so many blessing in my life
20. For my family's happiness
21. That I only had two spelling errors when I typed it up.

God bless! And if you read this, please say a prayer for my family

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Just a day to be thankful

I have a busy day today! I feel much better. I will post later.

The things that I am thankful for:

1. My Little Man's love of soccer
2. The excellent homemade BBQ Chicken Pizza I made last night.
3. My hardworking hubby.
4. My ability to speed read
5. My family
6. All of the food in my refridgerator.
7. The phone
8. My friends
9. That I am an excellent cook
10. For my online shop that I am opening
11. Suze Orman's books
12. For the book, "the World's cheapest family"
13. All the wonderful people in my life
14. That little man likes swimming
15. That we get to go to parent appreciation day at the library
16. For all of our blessings
17. For money to pay our bills
18. That my LM loves hugs and kisses
19. For the ability to relax
20. That I no longer need meds

Friday, March 25, 2011

Down and Out

I'm feeling a liittle bit downt right now. I think it's because I have applied for all of these jobs, and still yet I do not get any call backs or anything. I got one rejection e-mail. This one was really nice the HR representative from the company said that she is sympathetic and that she was laid off for 2 years. The whole job search thing is really getting me down. I need to stop right now before I get depressed and not want to look for a little while. I will just make it a point to look again on monday.

My class got canceled again because again they didnt promote it. I understand that the guy is busy adding new franchises (five of them), but what am I doing holding out ready to do this and then I get no respect? I was going to go in this afternoon, but if they don't have a class for me then I will just wait for another day. It's not worth it to bother everyone to watch Little Man.

This morning I was just so out of it. I have felt so tired. I just let Little Man play in his room. I just sat on his bed and relaxed. I think this stupid weather has something to do about it. It's 30 degree outside again. I was so happy for spring time.

This afternoon I have to take my little kitty to the vet to get her shots. That will be fun, and LM always likes going to the vet with me. I just need to get out of this funk. I think I need a break from him after watching him for so long straight and being stuck in the house by myself. I need to get out and do something for me all by my lonesome.  This Mama needs a break.

I have yet to clean and pay my bills, I will clean when I get done blogging.  I am currently in the process of starting an online store for my mod clothing designs. Currently, I am hosting it at jimdo.com or something like that. The website is very unfriendly so I going to have to change to another option that is much faster. My hosting site is very important, I need what works best with my skill level.

That's all I got for right now, as always if you see this, please say a prayer for me and my family. God Bless!

The Sheen of White Suburbia

Hello world! Welcome to a new day. The sun is shining, what could be better?

I almost finished reading the book, "The World's Cheapest Family, Gets Your Right On The Money," by the Economides family.  It was a really easy read and I tore through 260 pages in about 2 hours. I actually have really enjoyed this book. It is authored by a husband and wife team effort, both of which have the same writing style as I do. There are so many eye opening facts in the book about the enormous pile of debt that Americans faced, especially before our current depression. The book was written in 2007, and is kind of like peering into the economic window right before everything collapsed. The facts are staggering such as in 1982 Americans had 70 Billion dollars worth of debt altogether. In 2006 Americans had almost 800 billion dollars! 800 billion! The average house size in the past 30 years went from around 1700 sq ft to just over 2700 sq ft. I wish the president would have read this book when it was written, I think that a lot of things would have been different. "Dear Mr.President, Please read the book The World's Cheapest Family."

Every since we went BK just over a year ago, I have been trying to find some kind of budget system to help us build our saving up. This year has been especially hard because one month my husband worked over 50 hours a week and only brought home $850.  With my unemployment, that's $2000 monthly income. That's not really enough to support our family of three without any assistance with our student loans and car bills. This book really gave me a more simple way of budgeting called "emergency room" budgeting. This is where you don't spend any  extra money for a whole month, and then begin a system of only keeping in the bank what you need to write checks for. Then they have an envelope system where they put their monthly allowance of expenditures in each envelope in cash. I think I am going to try this. It requires a lot of set up and planning expenses every paycheck, but I think that it might get us back on track. I highly recommend that anyone who wants to learn about budgeting family money (especially for large families) to read this book. It's easy to read and packed full of great antidotes.

Yesterday we went to feed the ducks with a few extra slices of bread that we had left over from a clearance loaf.  The weather was a chilly 30 degrees and the geese and ducks were hungry. We first feed this large majestic pair of swans. They were beautiful and polite. Then we went down the walk a little further to where the ducks and geese where. It quickly got aggressive after a large Canadian Goose bit a piece of bread out of Little Man's hand and the rest of the gaggle of geese started to encroach around us. We quickly just dropped the rest of the bread and left. The geese just flown in from being south, so I am just going to say that they are HUNGRY.

I wanted to make this special mozzarella chicken breast ciabbata for dinner, but alas ciabbata is another product that is not available in my town. The local bread bakery that bakes artisan breads here said that I can call in the day ahead and they can make any bread that I wanted. I also stopped by Panera, and no ciabatta there either. I'm pretty sure that I am saying the word "ciabatta" wrong. The lady at the artisan bakery said you mean, "shhhaaaabaaaataaa?" I said yes. I think that's what she said, I will have to google it. I ended up giving up and purchasing a loaf of the most delicious brown sugar cinnamon swirl bread that I have ever tasted. Needless to say, I made some wicked bomb french toast last night.

When we got home we played hide and seek in our apartment. It really consisted of LM staying in the same place and hiding, and me hiding in different places in a hurry in case LM decided to count to 13 instead of 20.  It was a ton of fun. After that we played with our potato heads, and settled down before bed time.

Our local aquatic center just added a 3 and 4 year old swim class for next month, so I signed up Little Man. He loves swimming, and just reinforcing his love makes him incredibly happy. Soccer starts in a week, and it should be a lot of fun. I have to go in today and pick up his uniform, and get his pads and a number 3 ball. I can't wait to snap his little picture in his uniform and text it to everyone. LOL. 

Today we have a few things to do. It is the 25th, which means that I have to write out our monthly bills.  That means I have to reconcile our bank accounts, and pay our money to the man.  I am probably one of the last people that writes out checks, but I find it really cathartic to write the checks out and put stamps on the envelopes.  It helps me to feel the money going out. We also have to take our Little Kitty into the Vet for her one year check up.  My Little Kitty is soo big tooo! Then pick up our uniform. 

Last night I had another dream about Charlie Sheen. We met once again, and we were once again madly in love. I have no idea what is firing in my head to create these dreams, but they make me feel good so I'm not going to complain. This one we were just living life together. I'm pretty sure that this time we went to Cedar Point.

Anyways, there are other things that I am thankful for today besides my Charlie Sheen dreams, here they are:

1. For all of these great books I get to read
2. For my wonderful son
3. For deciding to do the Pet Smart Health Plan
4. For the food on my table
5. For a roof over my head
6. For my lovely friends
7. For my family
8. That a new swim class was added
9. That soccer is starting very soon!
10. That there is a bakery that I can get all my wierdo gourmet bake goods that I want
11.  For the Economides Family writing such a good book. God bless you guys!
12. My smart Little Man
13. Money to pay the bills
14. Extra money to spend on whatever
15. For the job openings that I can apply for
16. For the interwebs
17. For the sunshining
18. For the gift of being a  mother
19. For all of the kind people out there
20. For a moment in time to relax and renew.

Thank you for viewing this blog and God bless. If you read this, please say a little prayer for my family.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Why Charlie, What Big Eyes You Have!

Today has been a poor grumpy day for Little Man. I have been trying to half way break this little two year old attitude that he has going on. He needs to know now that he has to listen even though he is getting bigger and can do things for himself.
The morning started off with having half an hour to go to the doctor's office. I did the unfortunate thing of telling him before hand that he was going to go and have the last of his shots.  He didn't want to go. He wanted to 'put on his own shoes' which really meant that he wanted to take  30 minutes putting on each shoe. I ended up wrestling him down and putting his shoes and coat on. We made it to the doctor just in time, and Little Man got his shots. He cried a lot this time, and did a little bit of failing.  We had to hold him down, my sweet angel. He earned a sticker and sucker for his duties, and he seemed completely satisfied by that. 
After the doctor, I stopped by the gas station and got my gas station nasty cappuccino fix, and got my brave little solider a donut. But something happened at the gas station- they no longer had my pumpkin spice cappuccino! Oh man, I didn't say anything, but I think next time I will. I don't want that other gross cappuccino stuff- I want my pumpkin spice. I know it's no longer October, but pumpkin spice can be an all year thing.
When we got home, we played with our cars a little bit, and my mother called. I talked to my mother for some time. She was upset because she just got her taxes done and they made just enough money where they wouldn't be getting much of a tax refund next year. This year, they are still going to get over $3,000 which is great. I told her just to relax, and to if she was worried to get a one year CD for next year's taxes.  We talked about everything that had been going on, I told her about all of my adventures that I post on this blog. It was a good and fulfilling chat.
I made my LM some chicken noodle soup for lunch and a big glass of milk. He was hungry and a bit sleepy after I had just spent a good 30 minutes tickling him and asking him to walk on my back (he is the perfect weight to get those kinks out, lol.) I gave him some Motrin for the shots that he had just received and had him take a nap/rest. 
I had a lot of cleaning work to catch up on and made this list covered with to do's anywhere from wash the windows to call the vet.  I got most of it done. Hoorah! It took me about an hour to do most of the cleaning. I will do some vacuuming when I put my LM to sleep tonight so that I know that it looks especially clean for when big daddy comes home.
Last night I had the most bizarre dream. I had a dream where I was at this large grand all inclusive water park resort (larger than Kalahari the largest indoor in the country where we usually go.)  At some point at the dream I met Charlie Sheen and we started this whole love affair.  It was so crazy. The funny part of it is as the dream progressed, he slowly started turning into a monkey.  Then all of the sudden in my dream- WHOOOSSSH-  a tsunami. Everything was washed away include my sweet Charlie.  When I caught up with Charlie later on he was then a full capuchin monkey. The funny part is in my dream I had to make sure it was Charlie Sheen so I asked him, "Hey Charlie, would you like to do some lines of coke?" In response to which the monkey jumped right up on my shoulder and hugged me around the neck. I wish a dream analyst could take a look at that one! He he.
I received my box of 1960's and 1970's patterns in the mail! Hoorah! I opened it up and it smells like moth balls, but what can I really expect from a box of patterns that has survived close to 50 years.  I need to go out and purchase a scanner so that I can start scanning them and making a website. I need a scanner/printer. Maybe they have one at Salvation Army that I can pick up really cheap. I am very excited, and the patterns are so cute! It is funny how everything comes back into style.
I sent a message to my gardening class sponsors, they have yet to really start promoting my class, so that means that it is yet another no go for the weekend. I am going to stop in there tomorrow and have them show me how to set up the systems. I am really excited to do this, and I will wait as long as needed for these classes to begin. I know that the owner has just set up 5 new shops, which is amazing. I am going to tell him tomorrow that I want to open up a head shop just down the block, and see what he says. You never know, he might see around the joke, and just go for it! Anyways, I am going to go in there tomorrow and check everything out. 
I am going to take my sweet bitty kitty into the vet tomorrow. Hopefully she doesn't get fleas from it like she did the last time. I think that I will just give both of my cats baths either tonight or tomorrow morning just in case.  I DO NOT want to deal with another case of fleas again. That was SOOO gross. They wereSOOO gross. They were everywhere and I was physically disgusted for a few weeks after that. I can't believe that I really didn't notice them until it was a full outbreak. GROSSS.
Anyways, now I have a few errands to run like return some shirts and drop off some dry cleaning. I hope that you have a very excellent rest of the day. And if you have read this, please say a prayer for my family. God bless!

The Forcast Calls for Love

I spent all afternoon cooking, then cooking, and then doing a just little more cooking. It just made me so happy to make some pretty delicious food. My slow cooker BBQ Ribs and Beans turned out phenomenal. I am so happy. They were tasty and the meat was falling right off of the bone.  My homemade mashed potatoes were the perfect potato chunk/mashed potato consistency. Everything was delicious. We didn't have time to eat our Shoo Fly Pie, or our salads, which is fine.

I have to take little man in for the rest of his shots.  He was so behind because Hubby didn't want him to get any shots, especially when we were separated.  Today will be his last round to get caught up. Thank goodness. I hate seeing him get shots, but I hate the fact that he could get sick even more.

I remember his very first shots when he was a little bitty baby. He was a little 9 lb bitty bundle of love.  He cried so hard. The little look on his little baby face was of sheer horror. I cried my eyes out, of course. I just couldn't help it. I had given my son his first experience of pain.  His face was all purple red and his little eye brow line was furled as high as it could.  Poor bitty man.

I am going to tell LM about the shots before he goes in today so that he knows what is going on once he gets in there. I am just happy for him to be healthy. I went in when we first got on MI Child insurance for uninsured parents middle class parents, he had a bad sinus infection, which kept on getting worse from going to a new daycare (new germies everywhere.) The doctor gave me a stank face because he was never vaccinated for whooping cough. I think when my Hubby and I were first married, I just kind of let him do his own thing (I did sneak in some shots), but now I really take a stand for what is correct.  I don't want my little boy to get sick with something like the measles because I was afraid that he was going to get another disease that he won't get.

Yesterday at Romp and Stomp, Little Man had so much fun. They had tricycles and push cars, tunnels, slides- everything a little boy could think of. LM has never gotten a chance to ride a tricycle because we live in the great white north and you can't really ride a tricycle in the snow.  He got right on and started riding around. He loved it. He was chasing his little friend around the gymnasium in the car, and they took turns deciding where to go. 

Hubby didn't want to stop by on the way home from work, because he usually doesn't want to do anything after work except relax.  He even called me and told me that there was no way that he was going to come out. Then he started asking me why they didn't want to come over for dinner.  I was like because it was going to be to late! Relax! Then he kept on asking me. I wanted to say, how come your not coming to play with your son and your friends, but I didn't.  Stupid questions shouldn't have to be followed with stupid questions. 

Then it happened- I saw him come through the gym door. I was soo happy.  Hubby was happy to see his friends too.  We watched the classroom and the little guys dance. It was so much fun.

When we got home we ate dinner, then watched some mindless TV, I don't remember what it was because I feel asleep as soon as I hit the couch.

I have some things I got to do today. I have to return a set of shirts and the dress shirt that I got for my husband and Marshalls. The shirt is too big and he only needed one type of undershirts. I say it's better to be safe than sorry with him. He really isn't having a good week.  I have to take Little Man to the library. I would really like to concentrate on just staying at home and playing all day. I think he needs that after being run around for the past few days.  Because according to Mr. Rogers, playing is how children learn to deal with things around them by acting out things in their own lives with their toys.

Little Man has had a major attitude the past two weeks, I need to just stay at home with him the next couple days and work with him, and see what I can do for him (and me).  

These are the things that I am thankful for today:

1. That we had so much fun playing last night
2. That we got invited to go and play last night
3. For my Hubby coming in and playing with us
4. For the bomb food last night
5. For my sweet little kitty who wanted nothing but LURVE today
6. For it not to snow despite the weather forecast.
7. For a warm house
8. For food on the table (delicious food)
9. For lights and heat and power
10. For my car
11. That I am blessed with such a wonderful family
12. For all of the wonderful people I am going to hang out with
13. That I am able to live without anti-depressants
14. That I have clothes on my back
15. That my eBay auctions made a little bit of change
16. For the blessing of being able to teach my son
17. For my parents always being there
18. For the Michigan Lottery- I will win you!
19. For the gas in my car.
20. For being blessed with good health
21. For being in good shape
22. For being able to enjoy life.
23. For this blog.

I hope for any viewers, that you have a wonderful day. God bless. And if you have read this, please say a little prayer for my family! God Bless!!