Yesterday all my troubles were so far away now... now I'm looking for another good day... Oh I believe in another good day.. My husband was in a good mood yesterday when he came home, which I am thankful for. He was also in a good mood when he left for work this morning. This makes me very happy.
I was happy yesterday, and felt quite liberated yesterday after concocting my five year plan. I am excited about going on that journey with my plan. Check and check on happiness!
I was two minutes late in calling MARVIN (which is the unemployment call in number for our great white north state), so I called first thing this morning at 7am. That really sucks because I really needed money deposited in that account ASAP. My cut off time for calling in was 6pm, but I got distracted making dinner and called at 6:02. I was shut down. That means I will get paid on Monday instead of Friday, hopefully the bank will count when a check is deposited instead when it is cleared when depositing funds into an overdrawn account.
I woke up this morning in a good mood despite the fact that my little man woke up in the middle of the night from having a bad dream, because he wanted to watch, "Dora." I told him that he was just having a dream, and that if he wanted to in the morning that he could watch Dora the Explorer. I rarely venture from the Disney Channel, so a change over to watch Nickelodeon Cartoons is quite an event. I just really like the programming on the Disney Channel, except they have a new show, The Pirates of something something. It's suppose to be a take on Peter Pan and Captain Hook, I think the problem with this show is that it is made for a little guy that is a little bit older and bigger than mine. The plot lines circle around Captain Hook being generally surely about things and stealing things, and not understanding when the kids - Peter Pan's friends I assume- do something nice for him. I don't know. It's really not my favorite. Today, I switched to one of the local PBS channels to try out their programming. They had Curious George and The Cat in the Hat. I don't understand how either of these programs are educational either. Well, maybe the Cat in the Hat helps children to think logically? However, I hardly see any good out of the Curious George cartoon.
When I was picking up from the daddy/little man play date in our house yesterday, my mind started to go in awkward places. I started to think about how I stopped going to story time twice a week, and now only go once a week. I stopped the Tuesday classes because my little man has a really hard time sitting still, and I think that it is really disruptive to the small class he was going to on Tuesday. On Friday, his class is much larger- maybe 30 kids, so it is much easier to get around the inch worm activities/exercises he does instead of listening during story time. Anyways, the last couple times I was in there the lady that teaches the Tuesday class wasn't very friendly with me that she usually is. Maybe she is taking it personally? I hope not. Maybe I should tell her that it's not her fault and that it is a combination of trying to get everything done, and my little man not being able to sit down and be still. Maybe that would make it better.
But a funny thing started happening, I was starting to think if for some reason if the library ladies looked at me and secretly were talking about how I look like I have more serious mental problems than I do. Like a schizo or something. I could almost see the three of them talking behind the desk. 'Have you seen her', one of them asks. ' Everytime I see her I am almost certain I pinpoint what her problem is. I just don't think that she is right in the head,' the other one comments. ' I think that maybe she is just a little anti-social, or just only likes certain people', the last librarian says.
Okay, looking back I know that just saying that is narcissistic. This is a huge chance that they probably have never said anything like that, let alone anything at all. However, it really got my mind spinning. Do they really see something wrong with me? LOL. I just have to relax. If anything I am just another parent to them. I guess all that I can do is talk to the Tuesday teacher when I see her next and tell her that I get really frustrated because my little man won't sit still and that it makes me sad because I think that if he could sit still that he could really enjoy her class. I think maybe that would patch things up, at least with the neuroses in my mind.
I really noticed and stopped my simple line of thinking from going to the evil plotting librarians onto something else. Oh goodness, the places where my mind goes to sometimes. I am really proud of myself that I was able to withdraw my thinking process away from that before I got trapped into it and have it drag down my mood.
I woke up to the glorious sun shinning. It Thursday, which means that my husband works until 9 pm or later tonight. That really makes for quite a long day! That means I have to find somethings to fill our 12 hour day so that my son feels fulfilled without seeing his father. I would like to take full advantage of these first days of sun, and go out and do something wonderful. When it is warm out, I like to take my son downtown behind the store front line and go to a kind of magically walk way that our small city has made around a pond. My little man really enjoys walking on its large arching wooden walkways, and looking at the large metal sculptures reaching out of the water. When it is really warmer out and all the snow and ice have melted, I want to take him on this fun large wooden fortress playground that the city has built. It is one of the coolest playgrounds I have ever seen. Between the multiple sets of wooden playgrounds, there are large play firetrucks, chimes, swings, tire swings, hiding places. It really has everything that a little imagination would need to start firing away. Since the ducks are just starting to come back, I would like to bring a few slices of bread to feed the ducks. Last fall around the middle of October, I took him out to feed the ducks, and there was a mass exodus of all fowl life to where we were passing out the bread. At first my little man was terrified. Encircling him were ducks of all sizes and colors, then the domineering Canadian Geese came through in their posse quacking and snapping. It was so much fun. That really was a good time.
Today I would like to go on a walk, maybe at the local metro park. Then we can feed the ducks. I can through some letters in there. I have to stop and get a gallon of milk and some juice. Then I guess the other three or four hours are whatever I want to fill it with. I wish that I could hang out with one of my friends, but I don't think that that is possible because we are out of funds until my delayed unemployment check comes through (oops :( ). I have about $150. That's not a whole lot of money. I am just hoping that my gardening class that I am going to teach next week has a full house. That would be amazing. I would first pay all my bills, and then buy something nice and little for my husband, who works so hard everyday and hardly does anything for himself.
Yesterday, my husband told me that all of the salesmen at his dealership quit. The owner of the set of dealerships really thinks he is a mafia don, no joke. He is this Italian guy who even quotes and talks like the Godfather (of course he doesn't reference back, but I've seen those movies enough to tell). This man is just ridiculous. I think the thing that is the most ridiculous about some of these dealerships is that they all sell this lie to the salesmen that they can make 200k plus if they put their minds to it. No, they can't. Maybe if they worked at Porsche. I believe that it is really just a sales technique on their part to get their employees to sell more to make them more money. This is the honest truth. Anyways, back to my husband, their are now only 4 salesmen for the entire dealership. There are quite a hefty amount of cars new and used on the lot, and with the busiest car sales season coming up, there are really going to hopefully face a lot of money, and unfortunately a lot of time at work. I hope that my husband can just do whatever makes him happy. I would never ask to take too much from him.
I have to start the day. So, if you are reading this please say a prayer for my family.
Things I am thankful for today.
1. That my son is such a wonderful little boy
2. That my husband is happy today
3. That I have food that I can put on the table
4. That I can go to my little nieces birthday party
5. That I can go roller skating with my little man at my little nieces party!
6. That despite the fact that I am unemployed, that I can spend a little time each day working on myself.
7. That I have completed a five year plan
8. That I have wonderful kitties, especially my little kitty who is the sweetest fur ball ever
9. That I have friends that can help me if I am in need
10. That maybe my husband can make more money because there are less salesmen
11. That I have a car to drive
12. That I am in good physical condition
13. That my son and husband are in good physical condition
14. That my little man is learning his ABC's
15. That we have been accident free for two days on the potty! Score for mamas!
16. That I have the internet and that I am able to write on this blog
17. That my mother is happy
18. That I get to watch my little man grow in to a middle size man and then into a big man
Amen!
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